Thanks for calling. If you're reaching out to sell your soul, I'll already know and I'll be there soon. If you're calling to just talk, leave a message and I'll call you back when I can. Which will probably be soon. Talk to you then~
[Max is quiet for a moment. A soft expression finds it's way onto his face.]
Rinku, no matter who you talk to, who you look up to, whoever you look up to or look down on, there is always someone stronger. There are people and things and being stronger than me. There is, always, a bigger fish.
If you want power, to be a bigger fish, that takes more than hard work. That takes deals, invention, and you to do things. Some good. Some terrible.
[Rinku blinks a few times. She kicks her feet a little and looks at her drink, then at Max.]
Maybe that's not the right question. I mean, if I made more deals like that, it'd just make them worry, and if I did something bad, it wouldn't be helping at all. It's kind of like what caused this whole thing in the first place, right? When... [She screws up her face to think of the names she's been told.] Prince Louis listened to the Pierrot instead of his brother, and let him put all the stolen powers into him and ran away, and then all this stuff happened.
[Not to mention that he, you know, exploded not long after, so he didn't even really benefit. But.]
Some people talk a whole lot about evolution or being naturally better. And I guess a lot of people here seem like they're naturally better. But it's like you said before, one person shouldn't do it alone. And even if I'm "just" a human, and I used to be normal, and I only learned to fight here, it doesn't mean I can't keep trying.
[She looks at Max, guileless. Wondering, of everything he's said today, which he's really getting at -- but maybe thinking all that's a little complicated. She sets down her glass and starts to draw a spiral shape with her fingertip on the counter.]
Hm, let's see... When I'm happy, I can't stop spinning. Records and CDs spin when they play. And a lot of seashells, they spiral out like they're spinning, too. And when you spin, it's like, 「Happy Around!」 You know? It moves outward in a circle, like the shells. Happiness spreads out that way too!
So I think, even if I don't take it, I'll keep changing here the way I have been, and I'll always keep getting better than I am now. Even if I'm not a god, I'm just me. And maybe that's still good enough. Because it really isn't about the power in the first place. Getting stronger's about what I can do for everyone else, and how they're all doing their best too.
Sounds like you've found a path to walk after all. Spinning around, spreading your happiness out in that Happy Around spiral.
People worrying about you isn't always a bad thing either. Depends on the amount of worry. Everyone worries about the people they care about, the people they love. That's natural and good. Now, if you start inspiring panic attacks, then there might actually be an issue.
[Rinku absolutely brightens. She nods a few times.]
Yeah! Yeah, yeah! Then I'll work hard! I'm gonna keep trying, and maybe I'll be better than I am now. And maybe I won't worry so much like I was for the longest time.
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Date: 2025-01-09 04:56 am (UTC)From:Rinku, no matter who you talk to, who you look up to, whoever you look up to or look down on, there is always someone stronger. There are people and things and being stronger than me. There is, always, a bigger fish.
If you want power, to be a bigger fish, that takes more than hard work. That takes deals, invention, and you to do things. Some good. Some terrible.
Power never comes free, Rinku.
So, how powerful do you want to be?
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Date: 2025-01-09 03:14 pm (UTC)From:Maybe that's not the right question. I mean, if I made more deals like that, it'd just make them worry, and if I did something bad, it wouldn't be helping at all. It's kind of like what caused this whole thing in the first place, right? When... [She screws up her face to think of the names she's been told.] Prince Louis listened to the Pierrot instead of his brother, and let him put all the stolen powers into him and ran away, and then all this stuff happened.
[Not to mention that he, you know, exploded not long after, so he didn't even really benefit. But.]
Some people talk a whole lot about evolution or being naturally better. And I guess a lot of people here seem like they're naturally better. But it's like you said before, one person shouldn't do it alone. And even if I'm "just" a human, and I used to be normal, and I only learned to fight here, it doesn't mean I can't keep trying.
[She looks at Max, guileless. Wondering, of everything he's said today, which he's really getting at -- but maybe thinking all that's a little complicated. She sets down her glass and starts to draw a spiral shape with her fingertip on the counter.]
Hm, let's see... When I'm happy, I can't stop spinning. Records and CDs spin when they play. And a lot of seashells, they spiral out like they're spinning, too. And when you spin, it's like, 「Happy Around!」 You know? It moves outward in a circle, like the shells. Happiness spreads out that way too!
So I think, even if I don't take it, I'll keep changing here the way I have been, and I'll always keep getting better than I am now. Even if I'm not a god, I'm just me. And maybe that's still good enough. Because it really isn't about the power in the first place. Getting stronger's about what I can do for everyone else, and how they're all doing their best too.
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Date: 2025-01-12 12:59 am (UTC)From:Sounds like you've found a path to walk after all. Spinning around, spreading your happiness out in that Happy Around spiral.
People worrying about you isn't always a bad thing either. Depends on the amount of worry. Everyone worries about the people they care about, the people they love. That's natural and good. Now, if you start inspiring panic attacks, then there might actually be an issue.
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Date: 2025-01-12 01:15 am (UTC)From:Thanks, Davis-san. For everything! You're always helping people, aren't you? Me, Neechan, your friends...
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Date: 2025-01-16 04:42 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2025-01-16 06:24 pm (UTC)From:Yeah! Yeah, yeah! Then I'll work hard! I'm gonna keep trying, and maybe I'll be better than I am now. And maybe I won't worry so much like I was for the longest time.
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